In essence, I want to have a blog to express my self to someone. I still believe that my words were meant to be read by someone who needs to hear them. I just had a pretty deep conversation with my cousin steven. still an alias, because i don't want anyone to know that he has problems. But I never go onto aim unless i'm drunk. I was drunk, he was the only person online I wanted to talk to, and I ended up talking him through all his problems. Why did that happen, maybe it was cause he needed someone to get good advice from, and I needed someone to talk to. It's like everything worked out like it's suppose to. So perhaps you randomly came here, and randomly decided to read the hard to read text. and now you're understanding a bit more about a person's mind, helping you understand more about yours.
But for some odd reason I can't think of anything poignant to say. So. watch the IT crowd, the black guy (Richard Ayoade) is hilarious. It might help you forget your problems.
When you need help. Who is there to go to? Well, who is there when you don't trust anyone but family. And you don't want to burden family with problems?
I have always believe that, if you care about someone, you won't let them worry about you. It's selfish. It's not their problem. Why should they have to deal with it. But if you have a problem that can't be solved without help, who do you tell. You can't tell someone who cares about you without changing their life, but why would you trust someone you don't care about with a secret. I guess this is another problem I need help with.
